Identity War

Hello, This journey is of a girl's childhood dreams to a woman with shaky vision. I come across alot of women who are "Homemakers" and when I try to categorize them I fail to get an exact demarcation, all have same dreams, hopes and dilemma. My purpose of starting this Blog is to share my experience during my Journey on the beautiful road..Called Life. MAKING OF A "Homemaker"......challenges, growth chart,vision,mission etc. etc......hold on its not that serious. I want you to enjoy each bit of it and do share if you relate with it at any point in time. I am a homemaker...managing my home and taking care of my three boys. Two are official kids and one adult behaving as a kid, in fancy words you can call him a hubby. Each morning begins with a justification that whatever I am doing today is the best that I can do for my family and at the same time I clarify that "my family" includes my identity too. The next step begins with motivating self for the monotonous activities with a pinch of excitement added by my little ones. Being at home after a fling of eight years in corporate world seems challenging but if you make peace with your over enthusiastic career horse than you can live a meaningful and selfless journey with a smile. Holding my thoughts I began the day and lived upto everybody’s expectations and then the darkness of night crept in and started knocking my mind's closed doors and suddenly I woke up with a thought that what I did today was for "my family"....M I loosing my identity somewhere??? The question was asked....well! The reply is inevitable. I took all the courage to answer the question asked by my inner self. I finally decided what is Identity for me....Hey!all have their own meaning and it’s the question to be asked by self and should be answered by self only. So now it’s my turn to tell you what I mean by MY IDENTITY By Identity do I mean my NAME..NO, I think it’s how I see myself when I see myself. It is how I perceive myself .I was confused and the answer was not easy...with a lot of ups and down, approvals and denials, warfare and peace..I concluded what means Identity to me..It’s a thing which is used as per the convenience ...It’s not the NAME for sure. It’s the belief that I have within myself and how I see myself in the mirror each day. And I love myself, the way I am and love the way feel comfortable in my own skin, my own thoughts and my own dreams….That’s my Identity!