At times you break down

Things don't go the way want them to...always.

You can't portry yourself strong all the time when you know things are breaking from inside and you are struggling in and out to  restructure them,rebuilt them or may be hiding them.

As a homemaker....No m wrong here...as a woman ....No no as a "superwoman"....u break it and make it everyday ..sometimes the issues are big but more often small.At times, I feel it's totally how u perceive and how u judge..  an issue a issue or just a daily dose of problem solving /jigsaw puzzles.

Sometimes you don't understand but bit by bit you take alot on your shoulders ... I can sum it up as""keeping all Happy @ the same time""...

It's not always that what  you do to keep people happy arround ...it's the feeling to take a pause for yourself becomes more taxing.there is a thin line between "I want to do " and "I have to do...we end up spending to much on the later then the first one.Clarity should begin from within...it doesn't mean to hurt someone but to have a healthy n happy self.

Stories makes us feel happy when it's less complex and more entertaining....but reality is more complex as the human behaviour is more complex and knowing this we keep on judging and nagging people ....we make it more complex... .Just smile and let the life flow like a cool breeze ...let your vello feel the cold of the breeze and breath the fresh air of new thoughts and make you more lively......

intolerance or coward

Today...in d evening just got a news that daughter of one of my aquantace jumped from the building .....it's a suicide case.She was just 15...I was not able to see beyond the pain that the parents were going through,the helpless feeling and the hurt that must me putting their heart apart...
This incidence squeezed me and crushed my belief that kids of this era  are more smart and intelligent than us...I believe they are not smart but they are getting more intolarant and vulnerable mentally ....We are more bothered about our kids to be all rounder ,we are more bothered about providing them all luxuries in life,we are more concerned about their wants than needs,we are interested in always over protecting them ,we are more updated on their friends new gadgets but......we hardly see the need to make them emotionally equipped with the present lifestyle.

I don't know where the things are going wrong ....how the kids get the courage to take that extreme step....kids nowadays link an incidence or a failure as revocable and believe it's the end of life ....but we need to make them understand that failure is a part of life n not the life....
LIFE is huge and it's full of all kinds of shades.....happiness,sorrows,pain ,hurt,failure ,success,love,hatred,kindness,cruelty,friendship....the list is endless...
As parents it's our responsibility to stay with them when they need us and leave them to guide them and  to understand the harshness of life on their own.Hand holding will surely make them weak from inside and this will make them vulnerable .We have this untouched and pious clay in our hands given by the almighty to nurture ..... We can only make difference in the way we mould it and give it heat in proper way to make the end product strong internally as well as externally....

Kids are our future....make them strong and make them love LIFE!

break...what's that

Break!my kids are enjoying their summer bonanza with all gadgets ,pampering and visiting their favourite "people" for more pampering.
ya they got a break from all their routine of studies,classes and mumma' s discipline.

My lost...hey where's my break..do I really need it or do I really feel happy when I get it?????

A lot of introspection,a lot of meditation,a lot of positive gyan,a lot of spiritual enlightenment,a lot of work on energies can give you that break........Noo a big no ...at least not my defination.

You can't take a relax if you are shouldered with responsibilities,you can sit if you a mess arround,you can't chill if your mind is running on thousands of horses of irrelevant but futuristic thoughts.....these are too many  excuses of not getting ready to see the life in the very moment you are in...

hey !M not preaching here but what found is that the BREAK is like an illusion or you can compare is with mirrage....you see it and when you reach there you can't feel it or see it...

Just live the moment folks....that's the only thing we have....

love thyself...live live live....

Mother and Motherly guilts

I was just wondering about a thought that flashed to my mind when I met a friend of mine who left her job to take care of her child,"that why her why not the father???Why only mothers feel guilty for not spending quality time with kids???Why only mothers takes the responsibity if anything wrong happens to the child???Why the mothers are the only dependable human being in the family???why only 18-34% of women get back to the work after first child???
Once a mother is always a mother"is it the hormone or nature or belief or upbringing or duty...I dont know but the statement holds good with every mother...working or stay at home.
If the mother is working ,she haunts her thoughts with guilt that she is not spending time with kids and if she is at home she always questions whether she is doing justice with her upbringing while balancing her non- working image frustration and love towards her kids.
At times I ask question to myself WHY only mothers feel guilty why not Fathers....Is it only her responsibility or it's just her nature to take everything on her???
When such questions arises we blame the partner or parents; may be, but in my view its just the social setting, that we live in, makes it difficult to forgo a father's job then the mother's.This social conditioning which is given to all the Indian girls sensitize them to the risky zone of guilt!.Charity begins at home...correctly said,but hardly practised.We need to initiate a change in our familiee,the society will change automatically.


This guilty zone is waiting to get clear with a fresh thought of sharing responsibities.

Identity War

Hello, This journey is of a girl's childhood dreams to a woman with shaky vision. I come across alot of women who are "Homemakers" and when I try to categorize them I fail to get an exact demarcation, all have same dreams, hopes and dilemma. My purpose of starting this Blog is to share my experience during my Journey on the beautiful road..Called Life. MAKING OF A "Homemaker"......challenges, growth chart,vision,mission etc. etc......hold on its not that serious. I want you to enjoy each bit of it and do share if you relate with it at any point in time. I am a homemaker...managing my home and taking care of my three boys. Two are official kids and one adult behaving as a kid, in fancy words you can call him a hubby. Each morning begins with a justification that whatever I am doing today is the best that I can do for my family and at the same time I clarify that "my family" includes my identity too. The next step begins with motivating self for the monotonous activities with a pinch of excitement added by my little ones. Being at home after a fling of eight years in corporate world seems challenging but if you make peace with your over enthusiastic career horse than you can live a meaningful and selfless journey with a smile. Holding my thoughts I began the day and lived upto everybody’s expectations and then the darkness of night crept in and started knocking my mind's closed doors and suddenly I woke up with a thought that what I did today was for "my family"....M I loosing my identity somewhere??? The question was asked....well! The reply is inevitable. I took all the courage to answer the question asked by my inner self. I finally decided what is Identity for me....Hey!all have their own meaning and it’s the question to be asked by self and should be answered by self only. So now it’s my turn to tell you what I mean by MY IDENTITY By Identity do I mean my NAME..NO, I think it’s how I see myself when I see myself. It is how I perceive myself .I was confused and the answer was not easy...with a lot of ups and down, approvals and denials, warfare and peace..I concluded what means Identity to me..It’s a thing which is used as per the convenience ...It’s not the NAME for sure. It’s the belief that I have within myself and how I see myself in the mirror each day. And I love myself, the way I am and love the way feel comfortable in my own skin, my own thoughts and my own dreams….That’s my Identity!